Three Weeks with My Brother by Nicholas Sparks

Dreams are always crushing when they don't come true. But it's the simple dreams that are often the most painful because they seem so personal, so reasonable, so attainable. You're always close enough to touch, but never quite close enough to hold, and it's enough to break your heart.

What good is talking if neither of you are really committed? If one of you had an affair or got addicted to drugs or was abusive, simply talking about it wouldn't take the hurt away. Or fix the trust that's been lost. In the end, marriage comes down to actions. I think people talk too much about the things that bothered them, instead of actually doing the little things that keep a marriage strong. You have to know what your spouse needs from you, and then you do it. And you avoid doing the things that harm the relationship. If your spouse acts the same way, your marriage can make it through anything.

Just remember this, okay? It'll help you later in life when you're disappointed about anything. What you want and what you get are usually two entirely different things.

Everyone has dreams. And even if yours didn't work out the way you wanted, it doesn't make me any less proud of you. Too many people never really try.

"are you excited?"

the answer is : not yet..

too many problems is the reason why.

bukan berarti gw ga seneng karena instalasinya udah berjalan. bahwa sebentar lagi akhirnya gw akan bener-bener melakukan pekerjaan gw yang sebenarnya. tapi karena setiap hari selalu aja ada masalah :(

mending kalo masalahnya bisa ditanganin sendiri, ini ga. masalahnya selalu hanya bisa diselesaikan dengan bergantung pada orang lain. dan entah kenapa penyelesaiannya selalu lama. berbelit-belit. kan bikin cape. bikin emosi.

proses instalasi masih akan berjalan hingga 3 minggu ke depan. dan masalah-masalah yang ada belum kelar.

belum lagi pesanan-pesanan yang belum datang. sungguh sangat menyebalkan ketika semua proses yang sederhana selalu terbentur birokrasi maupun terbentur pada ketidakmampuan orang-orang untuk menyelesaikan masalah dengan efisien dan efektif.

it should be getting better next week.. and i hope the end of this installation process will be alright..

it better be..

Jason Mraz - If It Kills Me

Hello, tell me you know
Yeah, you figured me out
Something gave it away
It would be such a beautiful moment
To see the look on your face
To know that I know that you know now

And baby that's a case of my wishful thinking
You know nothing
Well you and I
Why, we go carrying on for hours on end
We get along much better
Than you and your boyfriend

[Chorus:]
Well all I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me

How long, can I go on like this,
Wishing to kiss you,
Before I rightly explode?
This double life I lead isn't healthy for me
In fact it makes me nervous
If I get caught I could be risking it all

Cause maybe there's a lot that I miss
In case I'm wrong

[Chorus]

If I should be so bold
I'd ask you to hold my heart in your hand
I'd tell you from the start how I've longed to be your man
But I never said a word
I guess I'm gonna miss my chance again

All I really wanna do is love you
A kind much closer than friends use
But I still can't say it after all we've been through
And all I really want from you is to feel me
As the feeling inside keeps building
And I will find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
If it kills me
I think it might kill me

And all I really want from you is to feel me
Yeah, the feeling inside keeps building
I'll find a way to you if it kills me
If it kills me
It might kill me