eating alone

because my parents are out for couple of days, i have to eat alone. outside. because it's too tiresome to prepare food after 1 hour driving at jakarta. and when it's time to come back home, usually i have got hungry, so waiting for an hour or more will torture me.

that's why i decided to go out. yesterday, i ate with my colleague. today, i planned to eat with my friend, but unfortunately she couldn't leave from work early so i went out alone. not to the mall near my workplace. i went to a small restaurant near office, because i'm craving of kwey tiaw. the best kwey tiaw in town is at gading, but again, it's a nuisance to go a place faraway from office just to eat and then go back home. and moreover, i have to eat alone. so i don't want to go somewhere far.

and the experience of eating alone because you have to is not as bad as i imagined. it's been two years since i have to eat alone. usually i eat with my family (though because i come home late, i used to eat alone, but my mom usually sit beside me, keep me accompany) or with my friends.

it made me think.. about how lonely it'll be if i go abroad. either for study or for work. i want to have another experience but am i ready for that? you'd expect nothing but being alone in unknown country. well, you'll find friends as time goes by, but being with people that have known you for years is not the same with being with people you barely know.

it is quite an interesting experience actually. yet i'm afraid. i am trapped in an eggshell. right now i don't want to leave it. but at the same time i want to..

but someday i have to go from home, experience something new. wider my horizon and experience..